Another Day Another Dollar

Every night I get off work and I think about what I should post on this blog. I would love some feedback from my readers. I believe I have like 3 or 4….

I'm so over all the work drama. It's so hard to have friends at work and want to help everyone make money with you but you can't. There's no way you can pull 4 girls to one table and it sucks. I love all my friends so much but I just can't do it. Lately if I pull one girl then that money actually is coming out of my pocket from the customer. Is it really fair to me or is it f***** up if I just want to sit there alone? I have a child to support as well and thing to pay for. I have dreams that I want to pursue to get out of this business and I need the money also. It's a really tricky situation and I just don't know what to do anymore. If I stick to myself and mind my business then I'm a b**** and if I open up then I feel I am being taken advantage of at some point. I just don't know what to do anymore and I'm loosing sleep over it.

I wonder if those girls are even concerned about me though…..

"Frienemies"

We all have them but we just don't want to admit to ourselves who they are. Enemies disguised as friends. Not only in the strip club but also in real life. My mother keeps telling me that I will realize soon that I have no friends other than her and for 30 years I have been doubting her. I am coming closer to believing her now after all my experiences with these backstabbing women. Why is it so difficult for us to believe our parents? I am not sure but I ask myself that now.

So these enemies disguised as friends are so tricky. I fall for them every time. I always open my heart to  people and I get f***ed every time. I don't know if it's better to be a b**** to everyone and have them talk behind my back or to be nice and get taken advantage of? What do you think?